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Occupy History, Occupy Consciousness

Wednesday, October 19th, 2011

In the midst of all this revolt and dissatisfaction, sometimes, still, when I raise a discussion with performing artists about  how artists can become more relevant to modern times; how we can expand our role, how we can address larger issues, that all the responses are along the lines of (gross exaggerating follows here), “But someone tried it once and it was boring / didactic / amateur / heavy-handed.”


That all may be true.


But, does anyone want to discuss specifics about how we CAN do a better job of keeping people engaged while saying new things in a new way?


If the true place of the clown is in the midst of the terror, well, then, how can we be that clown?



Bueller?



Okay, I will discuss it.  Artists need to find better ways to help people process the issues, the social questions, the struggles of humanity in our era. We can’t just give up and address the easier-to-process issues, like dating, sex, love. We need to always be asking ourselves, “How can i expand the boundaries of human consciousness?”


I agree with that the delivery is important. If it’s boring, childish or amateur, no one pays attention.  That’s the last thing we performing artists want–the audience to tune out.  The childish, hitting-you-over-the-head stuff like the San Francisco Mime Troupe does is just so boring and insulting, and you have to already be a hard core devotee to sit through one of their shows.


It’s important to keep searching for new ways to present new ideas.  If if we artists don’t find a better way to speak to larger issues, we risk becoming irrelevant.  We’ll be left behind as our milieu, our society to whom we are supposed to speak, to whom we channel the Muse and the Great Questions, surges ahead without us.

Dear To Whom It May Etcetera

Wednesday, October 12th, 2011

To Whom It May Concern,


Please consider my formal application to be the stand-up comic at your upcoming groundwater filtration convention. I am skilled in whining, blaming others for my faults, exaggeration, jokes about bodily functions, cruel sarcasm and primal screaming.


Sincerely yours,
Michelle Shyman


 

Indie Low Budget

Saturday, September 24th, 2011

Artie: Auteur


Every year since 2004 Artie has been emailing me (UPM on his indie short film) to find out how much he owes people for mileage.

Artie never pays.  Every year he seems shocked at how much money it cost folks to drive to his set.

No one got paid for their labor on this film.  Artie works at a gear rental house, so the gear cost nothing.  Artie’s only expenses for the film were a makeup kit fee, the cost of food and mileage reimbursement.

This was a three-day shoot, with 12 people getting paid for mileage (catering, two actors, the DP, UPM, AC, two grips, AD, gaffer, makeup, armorer.)  One actor drove 120 miles round trip each day, since Artie didn’t want to pay to put him up in a motel…and he HAD TO have this actor—the “only guy” who could play the role…so Artie said he was willing to pay the extra mileage.

In 2007 Artie he told me that his roommate had discovered a mistake in the spreadsheet I’d put together detailing the expenses.  I asked for a pointer to what was wrong so I could fix it, but Artie didn’t call me back that year.

Again in  2011 Artie emailed me.

 

“How are you, Michelle?”

 

No mention of mileage.

 

 

James: Auteur


The last day of the shoot, James asked me (UPM on his indie short) to give him the remainder of his cash that we didn’t spend.


James:

 

“Don’t you owe me about $100?”


Me:

 

“No, darling, you actually owe me $11.  That single white rose that you wanted in the middle of the last day’s shoot so we could do the “Angel Heart” thing in the sleazy hotel room with the ceiling fan cost $21.  We were under budget till then.”


James:

 

“That $21 white rose was 1% of my entire budget.”


Me:

 

“I love you; you’re such an artist.”

 


Bethany: Producer


Bethany asked Marla, an actor on her indie short, to do her own makeup.

 

And makeup for the entire cast.

 

And to use her own makeup.

 


Joe: Director


Joe wants to shoot the break-up scene in the gorgeous vintage Smith Building mezzanine.  The producer has not been able to get permission from building management to film inside.

So, on the day of the shoot,  Dave the DP puts on a wig and a housedress, disguising himself as a pregnant woman.  The camera is hidden under his skirt with a hole cut in the skirt for the lens to peep out.  Two of the gaffers pretend to be tourists taking pictures of the historic building, using their pink mini-cameras with the always-on flash to light the scene.

Security throws the entire crew out.

 


Jenner: Producer-Director-Screenwriter-Caterer


Jenner delivers lunch to the actors and crew on set.  Our cast and crew consists of one DP, three actors, one location manager and Jenner herself.  Lunch arrives in a small paper bag: for all six of us: a single bag of cheese puffs, six packets of gum and a box of Oreos.

I Am Creating My Own

Monday, March 28th, 2011

 

In addition to writing my own stuff, part of creating my own is having a discussion with other artists about the role of theater & film artists with regard to social issues.

My frustration is that the level of the discussion has sometimes been limited to off-the-cuff comments such as “political plays can be boring” or “no political rally is as moving as an O’Neill play.”  Yeah, Dario Fo can be dreary.  Yeah, plays about alcoholic families can be intensely moving. Both of these statements are probably true. Both these statements are a valid part of the discussion.

But both these statements are only part of the discussion.  In addition to the above comments, I would like to hear what people think their social role as artists is and how to accomplish that role. I’m trying to solicit some “to-do” or “how can we” in addition to the “here’s why we can’t.”

So, here’s how I can explain myself most succinctly: I believe that all artists take a position, or choose sides, in all their work, consciously or not. They cannot help but choose sides, since art is created to be observed by the audience and therefore imparts a message of some sort to the audience. Artists take into themselves—channel, if you will–the human /societal fears and uncertainties.  Then the artists distill these fears and uncertainties, feeding hopes and dreams back to the audience. However, the message within those hopes and dreams can either be supportive of the status quo, or it can challenge the status quo and project a better future for humanity. The message we give back to our audience, though often made via the individual and the individual’s struggle with life, always has an underlying assumption about society. Our art will take one position or other even if we don’t intend it to do so.

The examples I love to use–the paintings of the of the old Dutch masters—have the underlying societal assumption that life is peaceful and beautiful: that the rich burghers own all this lovely fertile land and they own this lovely ripe young wife and you folks should just enjoy the peaceful beauty of the land and the lovely depiction of the burgher’s wealth, even though you don’t have a snowball’s chance in hell of ever having a peaceful, beauty-filled life yourself (you crummy peasants.) You should just appreciate abstract beauty, and, indeed, continue to support–by not questioning–the culture that created this so-called beauty. The painting says that this society is a good society, that it creates beauty and harmony. The paintings say that this society is as god intended it to be and it will be this way forever. “Just accept it; god is good.” Of course, the paintings were lying. Most members of that society toiled miserably and died young. And society ended up not being that way for more than a few hundred years…so the “always was and always will” presumption in those paintings was a lie.

On the other hand, “The Laramie Project” is an example of art that takes the other position. It presents a picture of a human being who has been abandoned and destroyed by society. That piece of work takes the position that our society is not all-good, all beautiful, all harmonious, but, indeed, that significant changes need to be made. That piece of art challenges the status quo and asks the audience to be Dissatisfied with the world in which they live.

“Vagina Monologues” and “Trojan Women” are all good examples. They are all projects where performing artists are engaging themselves in the community in positive, forward-looking ways.  “Syriana” is an example.  “Oceans” (the documentary) is an example.  These are films that ask people to think beyond their current thinking.  Michael Moore’s an example.

These messages are imparted in art works regardless of the quality of the craft, or the artistic excellence of the performance. Those are separate though related issues. Nevertheless, the message is imparted. “Girls Just Wanna Have Fun” and La Pieta and ”Oklahoma” on one hand and  “We Are The World” and The Vietnam War Memorial and “Rhinoceros” on the other. These works all have artistic excellence in their execution (none of them are the heavy-handed San Francisco boring-ass Mime Troup), but they have distinctly different messages.

So, we all recognize that there exist works of performing arts which challenge the assumption that society will “always be this way.” There are works of performing arts which challenge the notion that “only individuals can change; society never can.” There are works of performing arts that challenge the assumption that this is the “best of all possible worlds.” Some of you, my readers, participate in these works of performing arts because you do want to challenge societal assumptions.

I am asking you guys what you feel your obligation is as performing artists. Do you have an obligation to create new art for the new times we’re in? Do you think that what is happening in the world today is dangerous and could destroy humanity permanently in a way that was not possible before? If you think that, do you think that artists can contribute to preventing that? If you think that artists can play a role, what do you feel is your own role within that? Do you feel that it’s a purely personal choice whether to do a classic play or to do a current work in any particular season? Do you think as an artist, you should choose work to by your own personal preferences or do you think as an artist you have an obligation to choose work that will have an impact? Do you feel artists are simply individuals who decide their own career paths, or are artists answerable to the times, the morays, the societies within which they operate?  Do artists play a social role? If so, do they have certain obligations?

I think it’s a similar question any profession must ask itself. Do doctors play a social role? Or are they just doing it because they love to play with knives?  Must they operate on a patient, even if the patient has no money? Must they perform unnecessary operations just because the patient demands it? Should they perpetuate the notions of female beauty by doing cosmetic surgery? Should they save the life of a terrible dictator? Do computer scientists have a social role? Should they work on software which will conduct secret surveillance on all Arab-American teenagers? Do auto designers have a social role? Should they keep safety innovations out of next year’s model because it would raise the cost? Or should they just design a pretty, artistic car that gives them a hard-on without regard for safety?

DO SOMETHING

Tuesday, March 22nd, 2011


How can we continue to live in the normal manner when the world is ending with such suffering?

What are we doing about it?



DO SOMETHING

Letters from My Readers: Lost

Wednesday, September 22nd, 2010


Dear Michelle,

 

Humans seem to want things to be answered, as in final answer. Tie everything together into one neat package so as to be easily understood. Knowledge is part of change and change is part of knowledge. This knowledge can only come about as a result of action, an experiment, a contact with reality which negates existing consciousness and as the result of this tension produces new consciousness—a new theory, hypothesis, or system of knowledge. This very increase in the generation of new qualities (which is time), become part of the conscious unknown. We can know it in the future because nothing is unknowable but time makes absolute knowledge unattainable.

 

We are “Lost”. We don’t have solutions for, global warming, poverty, famine, education, health care. As individuals we think if we win the lotto it will solve all our problems. Maybe we should move to the mountains and go back to nature. Find salvation in some form of God. Join a cult. Grow a beard. Lost is all over the map because as people we are all over the map. This show is reflecting so much about the present state of human kind.

 

Lost, the Final Season Rant #3

Thursday, August 12th, 2010


Freddie and Pam don’t like “Lost” because they don’t like science fiction…except the Democratic Party.

Starving Artist Writes Recession Poetry

Monday, June 28th, 2010


Yeah, yeah, how lazy can one person be?!?!?

She is still refusing to write new blogs.

 

HOWEVER.

 

By broad and tumultuous acclaim, these senryu are being re-published for you.

 

At no charge.

 

TwitterHaiku 15:

Starbucks is posting //

Calories. Who cares? I need //

Starbucks to post jobs. //

 

TwitterHaiku 21:

Recession tactics: //

No French nails or hair streaking. //

Fire the housekeeper. //

 

TwitterHaiku 35:

Wearing Gucci shoes //

She carefully steps over //

George begging for change. //

 

TwitterHaiku 40:

Stealing is not right. //

Loaf of bread: six years.  Bank fraud: //

Ooooh, a big ol’ fine. //

 

TwitterHaiku 77:

Baby in ER //

Sniffles turned to pneumonia //

Mom was uninsured. //

 

TwitterHaiku 17:

I was a teacher. //

Laid off. Cancer. COBRA gone. //

Twenty months: homeless. //

 

TwitterHaiku 90:

You must deserve it. //

It must be your fault.  You’re bad. //

That’s why you’re poor. //

 

TwitterHaiku 91:

Stealing is not right; //

Neg-am mortgage loans //

Seem to be okay. //

 

Twitterhaiku 100:

Why am I laid off? //

I’m white and American. //

I deserve better. //

 

Twitterhaiku 18:

No job…can’t buy stuff… //

don’t buy stuff…businesses close… //

no jobs.  Great system. //

 

Senryu 146:

You’ve got twenty years //

Background; but yet, we didn’t //

Think you’d be so old. //

 

Senryu 152:

Come visit my home. //

Chat of art, foreign travel. //

Not the recession. //

Cat Shit Attitude

Tuesday, May 4th, 2010


You know how your dog eats cat “candies” out of the litter box and then gets Cat Shit Breath?

 

Well, today I have Cat Shit Attitude.

 

So, I thought I’d re-publish this column from last year that sums up how I feel this month.

 

Some people say you don’t have to be a depressed, starving artist.  You don’t have to suffer.  You don’t have to cut off your ear or live in a garret or die of syphilis contracted while having obligatory sex with your patron.   You don’t have to drink yourself to death or drug yourself to death.  You don’t have to be tortured by demons that pierce your eyes, entering your brain, causing confusion and compelling you to paint microscopic landscapes on lima beans.

 

These commentators say the creative spirit can flourish in happy times.  They tell us the creative spirit can exist in a well-balanced human: centered, grounded, cheery, sociable, fulfilled.  First chakra in harmony.  The bottom 5 rungs of Maslow’s hierarchy solidified.  Financially stable.

 

So they claim.

 

These cheerleaders for artists write happy self-help books and make lots of money lecturing on how to be a happy artist.  How to overcome your own inner blocks.  How to re-write the movies in your mind.

 

The people who make these pronouncements are overly medicated.

 

They take too much Prozac.

 

They are not in touch with reality.

 

In high probability, anyone who espouses the happy artist theory is nuts.  They could possibly be right, but…

 

…but…

 

…but I must say to you that since I have gotten breast cancer, uterine cancer, a life-threatening breathing disorder, cataracts, a huge (expensive) abscess in my jaw…all this without health insurance; and since I  filed for bankruptcy, my house went into foreclosure, my unemployment benefits ran out after being out of work for 36 months…

 

…I sure have been doing a heck of a lot of creative writing!

Where Did You Find That Toy? Part One

Tuesday, October 13th, 2009

So… an opportunity to travel.  Client hired me to produce a training video and they want to shoot it in their Japan office.

 

Before the quake and tsunami.


I’m not a big traveler.  I don’t get joy out of it.  Most people, when they travel, focus on the differences–the new experiences.   I focus on the sameness.  Everywhere I go, I see the same division of wealth and poverty; the same majority of the population crushed by the daily grind, unable to reach their full human potential; the same corrupt leaders who don’t give a shit.


Most people, when they travel, focus on the cultural experiences.  The so-called exotic foods or clothes or customs.  The great paintings, the architecture; the gondolas, the cute street fairs and the painted, pierced drummers.  I focus on the human experiences. I see the same beggars in the streets of any city with the same well-dressed people stepping over them and pretending not to see.  Squint so that you blur the details of the clothes of the well-to-do, or plug your ears so you don’t hear the different language: and then you observe the beggars all dress the same—no exotic costume here–in Cairo or London; and their mute language of despair is the same in San Francisco, Guadalajara, Stockholm, Port au Prince, Dusseldorf.  The same.


So, I don’t choose to travel abroad as a pleasure.  I don’t get joy out of it; I get pain.


However, when I do travel for work, I am a good traveler, a respectful traveler.  I meet people on a one-to-one basis; I evaluate each person as an individual human; I don’t apply stereotypes (even “positive” stereotypes) or preconceived notions  to how I expect a person to behave or what s/he might want.  And to me, perhaps because as an actor I’m accustomed to evaluating each person wholly and fully and engaging without preconceptions, I talk to all people from businessfolk to social connections to bus drivers to beggars on the street.  To me, it’s all the same—humans.


Many years ago, I was waiting on the sidewalk outside the theater (the holy space) for my acting coach to arrive.  A man was sitting on the sidewalk, slightly tipsy, begging for spare change.  I struck up a conversation with him.  As I was chatting, Mark, a fellow acting student, walked by, did a double take, and then walked on towards the theater without saying anything.


Later, after class, Mark asked me,

“Why were you talking to that bum?”


This shocked me.  What bum?  That was a human being!!!


Why is he a bum, but you, Mark, when you’re drunk with your buddies on Saturday night and you lost your wallet in the nightclub and you ask me to loan you ten dollars for the cab ride home, but you never pay me back…you are not a bum?


How do you know, Mark, that I was not talking to him about his insights on the current electoral issues?  Matter of fact, I WAS.  After we talked about how hard it was to be on the street, we talked about how hard it was to be an actor, struggling not to be overwhelmed by her day job.  Then, we talked about the elections and the…bla, bla…same conversations I have with you, Mark.  The same.  Same. Same.


And you DARE to call him a bum.  To put him in a box.


Well, I wander off topic.  How UNUSUAL for me.


The topic being shooting a training vid in Tokyo.


So, my client Griff and I buy our plane tickets for Tokyo.  The travel agency…

 

…oops…

…out of space…

…continued tomorrow…

 

Michelle is..

an actor, performance artist, screenwriter, indie filmmaker.  Her books are available at right on the front page of Reel Grok.

 

Michelle in profile

SHE wants YOU to cast HER in lead roles where sexy middle-aged women have hot affairs with younger men.


Senryu 38:

Many times I’ve said  //

“I love your work.” I was false //

I loved his body //

 

Michelle can currently be seen performing in … well, is currently writing … a multi-media live / filmed performance with elements of insanity. In my work, my goal is to present fictional narrative entertainment that inspires people to change the world.

 

click to see a list of movies with cats

 

Senryu 92:

I wrote a screenplay//

My brilliant, unique story  //

Tits and car crashes //

 

click to read more about my work