I worried about therapy ruining my instrument. When I went to a shrink to alleviate my desperate unhappiness I wondered if being “fixed” the way non-artists would get fixed would take away my sensitivity.
When I first started learning Meisner work (after an early training in Fake Acting), I had so many layers of masks which I had put over my feelings in order to survive in the 9 to 5 world (where grief and rage are NOT okay) that to be able to publicly (in class) expose any emotions at all, even the slightest hint of a real emotion, I had to go my very most painful, most guilty, most destructive memories and feelings. Then, I worried if I kept returning to my deepest, darkest well; would it lose its power? Would it go dry? Would I be left with only the masks once again?