Change happens slowly. And then, all of a sudden, it happens fast.
I’ve been on a more-or-less carbo reduction plan and a more-or-less detox diet for 3 years. All of a sudden-no trigger; out of the blue; finally—yesterday, for the first time in my life, without conscious effort, I stopped eating when there was still food remaining on my plate.
Change comes slowly. And then, all of a sudden, it comes fast.
Been doing yoga every day for 6 months. All of a sudden this morning I could twist 3 entire more inches. That’s about 10 degrees. Not little by little, a millimeter here and there. But, just one day, 10 more degrees.
Things take a really long time. They take a while to change and then they change in a great leap.
I was looking at—organizing—playing with–pictures of wolves.
Hubby said, “What are you doing? “
I said, “Filling my creative well.”
He said. “Where on earth do you get these crazy notions?”
Things take a really long time. And then, things spiral fast out of control.
I been spending 10 months staring at mindless video games for 8, 10, 12 hours per day. Playing video games for months; so intense on blowing up asteroids that I didn’t notice the counter was counting. One day I noticed there was a counter. I had blown up 162,000 asteroids. Never realized that before.
But it wasn’t a video game; it was a meditation that took the form of a video game.
I hadn’t been on stage for 3 years; I hadn’t been in a film for 18 months. My nightmares were all about people trying to kill me.
Without any additional effort, I made a leap one day. No apparent trigger, though I’m sure there was one. Slow to slow to slow to a leap. Finally—all of a sudden–I had a performance dream. I couldn’t remember my lines; I couldn’t even remember what scene we were in. Ah, such a relief to be back to the typical actor’s nightmare! I felt an unstoppable urge to finish all my 3-D work, finish all my armatures, frame all my work. Finished a basket piece I hadn’t worked on for years.
Then I stopped.
Then I played video games for a while.
Then I wrote about a hundred poems.
Then I stopped again.
I dunno change takes a while. Then, when it happens, it bowls you over.